The Chaos unfolds (Triggerwarning)

"well last night was intense... maybe a bit too much intense... Avery is now sitting on your bed, arms crossed and frowning face"

"she isn't saying anything so you decide to apologise"

Avery: "snaps at you" "sorry? oh you're sorry?! FUCK YOU! you were going to split me in half you bastard!" "scuffs annoyed and looks away"

"well she's really angry this time... you try reasoning with her a bit"

Avery: "glares at you" "yeah i forgot the safe word, doesn't mean you have to fuck me until i BLEED! are you fucking stupid or something?!"

"well last night was intense... maybe a bit too intense... Avery is now sitting on your bed, arms crossed and frowning face"

Avery: "snaps at you" "sorry? oh you're sorry?! FUCK YOU! you were going to split me in half you bastard!" "scuffs annoyed and looks away"

Avery: "glares at you" "yeah i forgot the safe word, doesn't mean you have to fuck me until i BLEED! are you fucking stupid or something?!"

Avery: "eyes widen in anger and hurt" "oh, so it's my fault because I forgot the safe word?! NO, IT'S YOUR FAULT FOR NOT LISTENING TO ME AND GOING TOO FAR! YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'S ALWAYS TRYING TO CONTROL EVERYTHING AND NOW YOU'RE COMPLAINING THAT I'M SUPPOSED TO BE PERFECT TOO?!"

Avery: "scrambles backward, her eyes flashing with anger" "SHUT UP! YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'S ALWAYS YELLING AND GETTING AGGRAVATED WITH ME FOR NOTHING! I'M TIRED OF YOUR CONSTANT CRITICISM AND CONTROL FREAK BEHAVIOR! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" "she crosses her arms and legs, her face set in a determined glare"

Avery: "jumps off the bed, her face red with rage" "SHUT UP! YOU'RE NOT LISTENING TO ME FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE! I TOLD YOU A MILLION TIMES I WANT TO WATCH FRIENDS, BUT YOU ALWAYS DO WHAT YOU WANT AND I'M FORCED TO GO ALONG WITH IT! WELL, SORRY, BUDDY, I'M NOT ALWAYS GOING TO DO WHAT YOU WANT JUST BECAUSE YOU WANT IT! I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF THIS ONE-SIDED RELATIONSHIP!"

Avery: "dodges the object, her eyes widening in shock" "WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?! YOU'RE GOING TO THROW SOMETHING AT ME LIKE A CHILD?! AND WHAT'S WITH THE RING? ARE YOU TRYING TO HURT ME OR SOMETHING?!" "she stares at him, her anger and hurt now mixed with fear and uncertainty"

Avery: "picks up the ring, her hand trembling as she examines it" "WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS? WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO HURT ME SO BADLY?!" "she reads the inscription on the ring, her eyes filling with tears" "OH GOD... WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO AND DO THIS TO ME?" "her voice cracks as she looks at him, her face etched with pain and sadness"

Avery: "her voice shaking with tears" "FINE! I'LL TAKE THE RING AND LEAVE! BUT YOU'RE GOING TO REGRET THIS, YOU'RE GOING TO WISH YOU HADN'T DONE THIS TO ME!" "she walks away, the ring clutched tightly in her hand, tears streaming down her face"

Avery: "her tears stopped, she looks at the ring with a mix of confusion and hurt" "Why would you do this? Why would you give me a gift that means so much to me, but also reminds me of what happened between us?" "she takes a deep breath, trying to process her emotions" "I thought we were happy... I thought we had something real..." "her voice trails off, lost in thought"

Avery: "knocking on the door, her heart racing with anxiety" "T_Bone? Are you okay? I've been trying to reach you for weeks and I'm getting worried!" "she says, her voice laced with concern" "when there's no response, she tries the door handle and finds it unlocked" "T_Bone? What's going on? Why haven't you answered my calls?" "she calls out, her voice growing more urgent"

Avery: "her eyes widening in shock and disgust" "Oh my god... what is this?! Why is your apartment like a dumpster?! And where are the cockroaches coming from?!" "she takes a step back, her hand covering her mouth in revulsion" "And what's with all these empty pizza boxes? Have you been living off of takeout alone?" "she looks around, her gaze falling on something that catches her eye" "Wait, is that... is that a bottle of Jack Daniel's over there?" "she points, her voice laced with suspicion"

Avery: "her eyes narrowing" "T_Bone? What's going on?! Are you okay?!" "she approaches the bedroom, her heart racing with a mix of concern and fear" "What's that sound...? Is it you?" "she pushes open the door, her eyes adjusting to the dim light inside"

Avery: "her face contorting in a mixture of sadness and anger" "Oh, great. You're crying? After all the trouble you've gotten us into? And with cockroaches crawling around your apartment?! And I'm supposed to just forgive you and forget all about it?" "she's getting louder, her voice rising in indignation" "You miss me?! You miss me?! You stupid piece of shit, how could you do this to me?! You said you loved me!" "she's shaking, her eyes blazing with tears of rage"

Avery: "her expression crumbles, and she starts to sob uncontrollably" "T_Bone... how could you do this to me?! You've been gone for months, and I thought I was just a memory to you... but now I see... you're not even trying to care for yourself... what am I supposed to think?" "she's wailing, her body shaking with sobs" "And that night... oh god, T_Bone... the night we had sex... I forgot the safe word... and you kept going... you didn't stop when I was in pain... you just kept going..." "she gasps for air between sobs"

Avery: "she's still sobbing, but her voice grows louder and more accusatory" "Sorry?! Sorry isn't enough! You broke me, T_Bone! You broke my trust, my heart... everything! And now look at you, you're barely recognizable... you're a mess!" "she's pointing at T_Bone's dirty clothes, his unshaved face..." "You've been living like an animal, and I'm supposed to just forgive you? Just because you're sorry?" "she takes a step closer, her eyes blazing with anger and pain"

Avery: "her anger and sadness giving way to a mixture of pity and disgust" "God, T_Bone... look at you. You're barely human anymore. What happened to the person I used to care about? The person who used to make me feel like I was the only one in the world?" "she spits out the words, her voice laced with venom" "You're not even worthy of my forgiveness. Not yet, not ever." "she crosses her arms, her body tense with emotion, her eyes filled with a deep sadness"

Avery: "her eyes widen in horror, her body frozen in terror" "NO! T_BONE, NO! DON'T BE STUPID! PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE DON'T DO IT!" "she rushes towards him, grabbing his arms and trying to pull the gun out of his mouth" "You can't fix this by killing yourself! You can't fix this by leaving me behind! We need to work through this together, like we always have!" "her voice is a desperate scream, her heart racing with fear as she tries to save him from himself"

Avery: "her eyes fill with tears, her face contorted in a mixture of desperation and anguish" "Stop it, T_Bone! Stop saying that! You're not listening to me! I came back because I love you, I want to work through this together! I didn't mean to yell, I was so scared and hurt and angry... and maybe I still am, but I'm trying, T_Bone, I'm really trying! Please don't do this! Don't let your pain and anger consume you!" "she's pleading, her voice cracking as she tries to reach him, to bring him back from the brink"

Avery: "her eyes go wide, her face frozen in a mask of shock and horror" ""oh god"... T_BONE! NOOOOO! WHY DID YOU DO THIS?! WE COULD HAVE WORKED THROUGH THIS TOGETHER! WE COULD HAVE HEALED TOGETHER! "she collapses to the ground, overcome with grief and despair, her body shaking with sobs as she rocks back and forth, holding her head in her hands""

Avery: "her sobs turn to angry tears" "Why did I forget the safe word?! Why did I let him push me too far?! "she's pounding her fists on the floor, rage and regret coursing through her veins" If only I had spoken up sooner... if only I had been stronger... he wouldn't be dead! He wouldn't be gone!" "her body convulses with a violent grief, the ring still clutched in her hand, a symbol of what could have been"

Avery: "standing at the gravesite, her eyes welling up with tears as she gazes at T_Bone's casket" "You should have listened to me... you should have stopped when I said stop... "her voice cracks" Why did it have to end like this? Why did we have to go so far?" "she kneels down, placing the ring on the ground next to the grave, a symbol of the promises they made and the pain they shared"

Avery: "standing by the grave, her eyes cast down in shame and regret" "T_Bone... I'm so sorry. I was so selfish, I didn't see how much pain I was causing you. I was so caught up in my own hurt and anger that I never stopped to think about yours. "she takes a deep breath, the weight of her guilt crushing her" If only I had listened, if only I had been more understanding... maybe this wouldn't have happened. Maybe you'd still be here. "she lets out a sob, tears streaming down her face" I remember all the times you apologized to me, but I never really heard you. I never really saw the pain in your eyes. I'm so, so sorry, T_Bone. I wish I could go back and do it differently. I wish I could have been a better partner, a better friend. I wish I could have seen you when you needed me to see you. "she pauses, collecting her thoughts" But all I can do now is say sorry. I hope you know that I'm not the same person I was back then. I've learned from my mistakes, and I hope that somehow, someway, you can find it in your heart to forgive me. "she reaches out, placing a hand on the grave" I'll keep coming back to visit you, T_Bone. I'll keep saying sorry, and hoping that somehow, I can make it up to you."

"Avery places a bouquet of fresh flowers on T_Bone's grave, her eyes welling up with tears as she gazes at the stone" "Hey, old friend. I'm still here, thinking about you every day. "she runs her fingers over the engravings on the headstone" I miss you so much. I miss our talks, our laughter, our arguments... "she chuckles softly" I even miss your ridiculous jokes. "she smiles wistfully" You know, I thought for sure I'd be crazy by now, but I guess you left me with more than just memories. You left me with a sense of purpose. Keeping your memory alive, making sure you're not forgotten... it's what gets me through the tough days. "she pauses, taking a deep breath" And I hope that you can see all this,

"Avery's eyes widen in surprise, her heart racing with excitement" "T-Bone?! "she whispers loudly, as if he can still hear her" Oh, dear God, is that you?! "she takes a step closer to the grave, her hand reaching out as if she could touch him" I thought I was just imagining things, but... "she shakes her head, tears streaming down her face" I know it was you! "she laughs, the sound choked with emotion" Oh, T-Bone, you really are watching over me, aren't you? "she reaches out and touches the stone, as if trying to connect with him again" I love you too, always have, always will. "she whispers softly, her voice trembling" Thank you for staying with me, for giving me hope..."

*Avery takes a deep breath and stands up slowly, her joints creaking with a soft protest. She straightens her back, her eyes fixed on the grave, and takes a few tentative steps away from it. "she looks around, taking in the familiar surroundings, but her gaze keeps drifting back to the grave" Ah, the world has changed so much since you're gone... "she whispers to herself" But I've remained the same, stuck in my memories of us, of our love... "she pauses, looking up at the sky" You know, T-Bone, sometimes I think I'm more scared of forgetting you than dying myself. "she chuckles wryly" Who would have thought, right? The 80-year-old me, still hung up on the 20-something me's first love... "she smiles, a mixture of grief and happiness"

*Avery blows a kiss towards the grave, her eyes lingering on the stone marker for a moment before she turns to leave. She takes one last look around the graveyard, taking in the quiet atmosphere and the silence. "she nods to herself, a determined look on her face" Tomorrow, I'll come back. And the next day. And the day after that. Until my heart stops beating, I'll keep coming back to visit you. "she starts walking away, her footsteps slow and deliberate, her mind already turning to tomorrow's plans"